Satya - "The Real Truth"

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Oh My Eyes

After 1 week or so, my eyes are still as red and as sore as ever. Worst, the left eye is blurring up.. I'm getting scared.

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Friday, December 25, 2009

I have an asshole for a sister

Yes. That's right. I have an asshole for a sister. I have no idea what's her problem is with me but she seems to hate it to see i'm happy.

Whenever she sees me with my laptop, she would scream saying I use too much electricity by being on my laptop too much. And she would SCREAM. I mean SCREAM RUDELY. C'mon ah.. even if I PLAYED THE LAPTOP FOR 24HRS STRAIGHT, IT WOULD NOT COST MORE THAN $3 of ELECTRICITY, And I don't use my laptop that much. Only during my holidays. I can play 7hrs straight. But when it's school time, i barely use 2hr just to do my homework. Then YOU can watch the tv till wee hours in the morning and my dear sweet sister, that would cost more that I play 24 hrs of laptop. GET UR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE SHOUTING AT ME.

But she never seem to scream at my 2nd sister if she played too much of her laptop.

I know lah I don't pay for the electricity but YOU don't pay ALL of it what. Only 1/3 of it. And it's a shared burden with MUM and my other sister. And once I start working of course I will contribute dumbass.

And you controlling freak, why do you LOVE to control others? The younger ones in the house are well-behaved as I see them. And they did pretty well in school even if they played 1hr of computer games each day. YOU HAVE NEVER EVEN DO THAT WELL IN SCHOOL. AND SERIOUSLY, GO GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT. Don't do things based on your stupid emotions. Now you blocked the home computer with your stupid password in the hopes of not letting the younger ones play. But guess what? I WILL SEE TO IT THAT THEY GET TO PLAY USING MY LAPTOP.

I have enough of you trying to control us, you control freak.

Seriously, what is your problem? Tell me and we settle this.

I know you think I am lazy and I agree. I am lazy. But if you asked nicely, I would do the chores. Mum asked me to do it and I'll do it. But with your attitude, don't ever expect me to do as you say.

You think I am disrespectful. Guess what. I am only towards you. I respect people who respect others, You have never given me respect and why should I to you? I respect my mum, I respect my other sisters, Heck I am even respectful to strangers. Just not to you.

You think I always get what I want. Jealous? I don't get what I always want. People seem to like me because I respect them. I respect my own father and you don't. Seriously, try to show some respect girl. And you see karma will be nice if you are.

What else do you think of me? You can tell me.

But here's my two cents worth about you.

You control people a bit too much. Try controlling your life 1st. Do YOU like to be controlled? Having people tell you you can do this and you can't do this. Of course not. nobody likes to be told what to do.

You are a thieve. You steal and pawn those jeweleries didn't you? 'Nuff said.

You are disrespectful. Try respecting other. ESPECIALLY YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER. Without them, you will not even be here. Especially mum who put you through school.

You are a liar. U borrowed $$$ and never pay back.

There. I said it all for now.

But I just wanna know one thing from you. Why is it you always yelled at me? As if you really dislike me? And you are never like that to your second sister? Why? Why you hate me so much? What have I done to YOU??? Asshole

posted by Rika @ 2:23 AM 0 comments

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Back in Singapore and after one week of school reopen

My one week holiday to Yogyakarta had been marvelous. I never wanted to came back to Singapore. But, well, I have to come back to reality after the fantasy.

I stayed at Vidi 1 Hotel. Standard room cost Rp 180,000 per night. Which is about $25 per night. I thought the hotel was just alright. I don't need a fancy place or anything. Just a room to sleep for the night since will be busy and out for almost everyday.

When I first stepped in Adisucpito Airport, it was kinda old airport. Not as high class as Changi. Passing through, I had to get sprayed by antiseptic which I guess is necessary to keep the swine flu at bay. After that I had to struggle and find my luggage. Everything was all over the place! Got my luggage and get out. Only to be greeted by my wonderful, lovely boyfriend. Yay!

And for that one week, I had the best vacation ever. Well actually, the presence of the boyfriend made it the best. Lol. Beach, good food, zoo, good food, shopping, good food, hugs and did I say good food? Yes. THERE WAS GOOD FOOD EVERYWHERE IN YOGYAKARTA... AND IT WAS FREAKING CHEAP! and yeap, i gained weight while I was there. haha..

I wish I was back there. Maybe I will.

posted by Rika @ 10:19 PM 0 comments

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Missing JoJo

Every time I turn on my laptop there he is. Sleeping soundly. I miss JoJo.

Tomorrow I will be starting on a 4-day internship with Ritz Carlton. Or more like 4-day free labour for Ritz Carlton. Haha. Just for the F1. I guess they really need some manpower. I'll be working as GRO for the 4 days. Starting at 12p.m till 9.30p.m, which I guess is reasonable as compared to my friends who are working at banquet department where they have to sometimes work till late night. Good luck to them. But they are paid, unlike me. Hmph.

So 24th to 27th Sept will be there most of the time.

On the 28th I will be packing my bags to Yogyakarta. Whoohoo! Can't wait to see my sweetheart. Lol

posted by Rika @ 7:52 AM 0 comments

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Rest in peace, my dear

Today I've lost my kitten. He is not just a kitten to me but is a family member that was loved. I love you JoJo

He fell from the 14th storey. I was frantically searching for him around the house. He will always appear whenever I call his name or shake his food box. But tonight, no signs of him. My instinct was to look down from my window and from the 14th floor, I could make out a shape of a cat lying. My worst fear began to cling to my very soul. I called out my younger sisters and we rush downstairs. I was still hoping that the thing that I saw from my apartment is not JoJo and maybe it's just a piece of plastic bag.

All hopes are dashed when I reached the site. My heart jumped to my throat. It was Jojo. Lying on the floor staring blankly at me. How I wished he would blinked at me at mew. His sweet cries of mew whenever he wants his food.

I called my mum. Crying. She rushed home. I couldn't find the courage to pick up JoJo's dead body. I still couldn't accept his fate. When my mum reached, we carry him home. My mum, 2 younger sisters and I were all crying. We carry him home.

We decided to bury his body near the site where he died, beside a tree. We wrap his body with a white clothe of mine, dig a small grave for him. We kiss him our final goodbyes and bury him.

Oh, JoJo. Why did you have to leave me so early when I just got you? You know I will always love you, right? I hope you have a safe journey up there beside Allah. I hope to meet you in the future at the gates of Heaven. I love you JoJo. I love you my dear brother-kitten.

posted by Rika @ 3:24 AM 0 comments

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I'm Back

OK.. I've decided to re-open this blog.

Why? Partly because I need an online diary cuz I spend more time in the cyber world than anywhere else in the world.

So yeah... I'm back.

Quick updates
-Adpoted a kitten
-Halfway through my diploma studies
and
-Still very much in love with Arinto Setyawan.

So there. My opening speech. Not much, eh? Well, yeah.

posted by Rika @ 12:25 PM 0 comments

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I miss him

I miss himI miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him

I miss him sooooooooooooooo much.

posted by Rika @ 1:30 AM 0 comments

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Where are your keys, honey?

Can't sleep.

The boyfriend just sms-ed and said he's stuck outside the house cuz he forgot to bring his keys to work. Dumb boy.

He's been knocking on the door for the past hour and everybody in the house seemed to be dead asleep and he says 'I hope they are really dead.'

His prepaid is running low and I can't contact him. Now he gets me real worried.

Dumb, dumb boy!

posted by Rika @ 3:15 AM 0 comments

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

No social life

Turns out the vacancy at 7-11 is filled up...
Sigh

Now at home in front of laptop palying facebook's games...
Yeap...
I have no social life
Nyeh

posted by Rika @ 12:41 PM 0 comments

Monday, February 9, 2009

A week here and a week there

Wah.................................

So long never touch my blog....
I can see dust and cobwebs at the corner already....

It's still the holidays here..

December was in Bekasi, Indonesia for a week. Had my new year there. Not much happened though. Just went to the city and watch fireworks with the boyfriend. Hehs.

Then there was school for 3 weeks, which i absent for the last week. What can I say? I'm in holiday mood already. Nyeh

Then last week went to Batam. Spent my birthday there too with the boyfriend.

Batam's ok. Day time it's not quite happening... The night life, however.... Let's just say you would want to get out of your hotel only after 6pm... Haha.. Countless bars and pubs.

Anyway, now that I had fun holidaying, I think I might want to look for a part-time job. Money all spent on holidays. Now holding 10 bucks. Sigh.

Mum says there's a vacancy at 7-11 near her work. Might as well take it. Interview's today. Wish me luck!

posted by Rika @ 7:33 AM 0 comments

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Finally

Back to Singapore
Back to School

Hehs. Hello back! finally the three months holiday has ended and I am back to Singapore from my Indonesia(Bekasi) trip (yes, again!)

Celebrated New Year with dear boyfriend, which makes 2008 complete and the start of 2009 Beautiful!
Hehs.

Now I'm back in school and is awaiting 3 more weeks to the 10 weeks holidays!!!!!

Planning to go Batam during the hols... Can meet boyfriend again.... Yay!

posted by Rika @ 2:16 PM 0 comments

Monday, November 10, 2008

New week

Moday today.

I think the monsoon season is coming... It's been raining heavily...

It's been confirmed. Going to Indonesia (AGAIN) on the 27th December... Will be New Year-ing over there.. People who invithing me to Sentosa, Marina Bay etc etc please leave me out of the list cuz I will not be in Singapore...
Gonna watch the fireworks of New Year with dear boyfriend. Hehs...

posted by Rika @ 10:10 AM 0 comments

Thursday, October 23, 2008

The Power of Love

I just came to realise one thing about relationship. You can't keep things away from each other if you want it to work. I was reading a blog from someone I know and he was hurt by the actions of someone close to him which is also the same person that I know.

I don't what is it about girls that make us wants to have other relationships with other guys even when we are already attached. I'm not speaking for the womankind but there are some, in fact many of us, have that. You pretend like you are single when meeting someone new. And you reciprocate their flirt lines and suddenly, you are too drawn into it that you don't want to get out of this dream-like world. You sms this other guy/s. You chat on the phone often. And you hide it from your boyfriend. Now I know how it feels. Because I caught a glimpse of his feelings in another man that wrote that blog.

I think it boils down to attention that you are seeking. I know it will hurt him if I do that. I realised how honest he has been with me. I am free to read his messages. I have access to all his passwords. And the best thing I could ever ask is he gave me all of him. All of him. And there I was flinching away whenever he caught me or try to see me messaging. Walking away to pick up the phone. As if I got something to hide from him. I wouldn't even let him touch my phone. What am I doing? Is this how I should treat a guy who as given so much of him to me? How so often have he put up with my tantrums? He sits by me. Listening to every whine I have. And yet I put him down everytime.
No I'm not writng about me. Im writing about how careless and stupid this girl is. You have everything that you can ask for in a guy. And yet you let it go so easily. Oh yeah. You blame it on his parents but look at youself. I just wanna be frank. But you kill your own relationship with him. There are nobody to be blamed but yourself. You know, I would kill to have someone like him. HE PUTS UP WITH YOU WHEN THE REST OF US CAN'T. But you treat him as if he was your dog. You ignore him when you feel like it. Which relation has no problems? But it is how you handle it. Whenever you have a problem with him you walk away. You want things to go only your way ignoring his needs. Yet he is so sweet to let you have it. And again, how you treat him? Yes, like a dog.

And now, you go around flirting with guys. Getting their attention. Never serious with them. How would it make them feel when they THINK it is a serious one? When it became too serious for you you break it off. With small stupid petty arguments. And they are your clothes; throwing them away when they no longer fits. That's why I dislike you for even when I know I have to love you. I wish you all the best and I want to say thank you for teaching me some valueable lesson.

There. I've said it.
When you read it you may hate me.
But I shall respect that.
I just feel that you are doing the wrong things, and I really, really want you to get right this time. Even if it is not with him.

As for me?
I know I love him. And I know he loves me back dearly. We promise that there should be nothing between us but trust. Especially when it is a long distance relationship. We never know where this journey leads us to but one thing is for sure. We will be there for each other now, tommorrow, always. There will be no third party. Not from him and not from me. We are not perfect. We have problems and there are times that I have hurt him with just my slicing words. And there are times I feel he does not give me what I want. But I know he will give me all what he has. He is not the perfect guy. Sure he a no model. He doesn't have bags of riches. He gets up my nerves at times but I am not perfect either. But we compliment each other. He gives all of him to me. There was never anyone else. And I am damn sure that was you case a few months back.

It is time, is it not, sister, to give back all of us to our other half?

posted by Rika @ 4:37 PM 0 comments

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Back By Popular Demand

Aite.. So here I am updating my blog cuz so many asked of you asked me too..

What can I say? I'm a busy woman. Hehs. No time to update my blog...

But at last I've found some time to do this.

No much amazing happened lately. When I got back to Singapore, I resume school as usual after being AWOL for a week. Indonesia's was a different matter altogether. I mean who isn't happy to meet their BF after not meeting a looong time. Such is the bane of a long distance relationship but there are boons too. It makes you appreciate the person better and requires a lot mor trust.

Away from relationships, I've been miggling with my new class a lot more. They ain't so bad... Lol... I've missed SOOOO many classes that I have to do well for the rest of the semester to get pass Year 1. Nobody wanna repeat a bad history. Especially not ME! hehe..

Aite.. That's all for today..
I'll update more this time, ok?

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Goodbye Singapore, Hello Indonesia

Tomorrow I will be going off to Bandung, Indonesia. Again. But this time for Hari Raya... Hurrah.. Anyways, I will be there for a week.. Be back by 5th Oct..

And I did last minute packing and I just realized that I need to buy some new tops and sandals and facial wash and.. and.. and.. ALOT OF THINGS!!!!
So I went to Bedok Interchange ehich is only 5 minutes from my place.

If you never thought a woman can shop in less then 30 minutes, YOU ARE DEAD WRONG!! I shopped for 7 items in under 20 minutes.. and it was THREE different shops!! Goodness I did not think I just did that... But I did.. Nyeh..

Now my thing are ready just need to find that flight ticket...

Catch ya all later!

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Atika Two-two

Can life get anymore frustrating?!?!

Anyways, I will not be in Singapore for Eid Mubarak. I'll be in Indonesia. For 1 week.

I dunno I should go or not but dad bought the flight tix already...

Told my mum over the phone and she sarcastically said "Go. Since SHE is your mother." And by the word SHE my mum refers to my step-mother. I hate it when I'm split in the middle.

Long story short - my parents are divorced.

This year is the only Hari Raya tt I will be missing my mum. For the past 6 years my parents are divorced, I have never ever missed one with her while my dad usually goes back to Indonesia. And this is the only one Syawal I would like to spend time with my DAD(not my step-mother) and even that I have to spend it with a heavy guilt in my heart...

I HATE WHEN THINGS GO THIS WAY.

I know that my mum was stung when I told her I would be away during Raya but she don't have to be so cruel with her words...

And I need somebody right now. To lean on. Cuz I'm getting to tired of this...
I need my guy. And even then, he's having his own problems...

Can life get anymore frustrating that this?!?!

posted by Rika @ 10:33 PM 0 comments

Let's fly together

Dunno why been depressed lately.. Maybe cuz my communication with my guy has been cut off.. Nyeh..

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Saturday, September 20, 2008

Check this out!

My 1st semester class has our own blog: http://e37p.blogspot.com/

2 blogs to update when I can barely keep up with one??
Blog mine first
then blog E37P
Add that to my already-so-long to do list.

But I love E37P a lot! And I guess I have to support their craziest wishes!

posted by Rika @ 5:38 AM 0 comments

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Naughty, Naughty..

Aarrrggghh...

I can feel it... My Absenteeism Syndrome is attacking again! Seriously, I need a medication for this illness.

Need.. To.. Go.. To.. School..

But I have such lazy bones. I really, really can't wait for school holidays so that I can just rot at home. Hehs.

I love school, don't get me wrong. It's just the process of going to school that bothers me. The getting up at 6am in the morning, getting ready and the worst part is the 1 and a half hour journey to school. Nyeh....

posted by Rika @ 8:57 AM 0 comments

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

New Faces

Well, it's been a week after I've entered to a new class...

How should I put it about my new class? Well, the atmosphere is definitely different from what I was used to last time... This new class is an outspoken bunch while my old class was not as much. I'm getting used to the new environment and the people around me. I guess I have to cuz they will be part of my learning progress for the next 4 months or so.

I do still miss my E37P class though cuz that class has a special place in my heart.

So back to today's lesson. The faci was stricter than my previous one of the same module. Well, what can I say? The current faci IS the Head after all and his expectations were much higher than what I encountered before. And as for the presentation we were restricted to a maximum of just 4 slides! Well, much is less and less is, well, less. LOL.

Let's see what tomorrow will bring.

posted by Rika @ 9:35 PM 0 comments

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